Tomorrow I fly. Usually that means I get to the airport in plenty of time to check-in, go through security, get coffee and sit at the gate to read. Once I board, I sit down and continue to read. This is how I fly. But instead of carrying on an assortment of reading material and my laptop tomorrow, I will be hauling a car seat, an assortment of animated DVDs, toys and snacks. Baby A is flying with me.
My flying ritual soothes me. Because even though I like to travel, planes make me anxious. So if you can imagine, I’m a bit worried about tomorrow. I hope that my nervous energy doesn’t rub off on him. Thankfully, we’re traveling with Ya-Ya and that should help.
Wish us luck. Will Baby A survive a non-stop from LAX to Chicago? Stay Tuned.
Blogging used to be a normal part of my day. So far in 2010 it barely has been a bleep on my radar. Honestly, it should be a daily activity for me. Why? It isn’t because of a desperate need to share my life with everyone or to become obsessed with blog traffic stats (and yes that does happen). When I decide to sit down to blog, I am waking up my mind, waking up my fingers, and waking up my consciousness. It makes my work easier because I am not trying to transition from mommy to writer in one swoop. Sure, time is short but in the end I think the results are better when I blog first then work. I move quicker.
That being said, you should see more of me in February. Now, the key is not to become obsessed with daily posts and stats.
So far this year I haven’t blogged much. Mostly because Baby A hasn’t napped much. When I do finally make my way to the computer, I just have to do it: write, research, email, whatever. There is no time to warm-up my brain. The truth is that I miss writing here, but at the same time I’m doing something that I have never really done—chill out.
Here’s the thing about Baby A not napping: It stresses me out. My inner dialogue wigs out that if he doesn’t sleep that I won’t get my work done, I won’t be able to interview, and I won’t be able to cross things off my to-do list. But this year something is different and I’m not sure whether it is because we spent the year fighting a cold or that A. is teething, but I have been able to quiet that tightly-wound voice. Instead, if he doesn’t sleep I enjoy playing more. I’ve never really felt comfortable just being with Baby A—always had to check or compose an email, because I could miss something. What I was missing was my son developing into a little person.
So 2010 may mean a little less blogging (and sleeping) from me but if it means that I can enjoy my family while also providing for them, it’s worth it.
Get ready to be introduced to my organizational geek. (Even though M. says I am the most organized unorganized person he has ever met.) I love January 1 because I get to start a new calendar—writing down important dates, transferring to-do notes, and just being excited about a new calendar.
I have tried working with my Blackberry and Treo calendars and I find that they are good backups to my paper one. For on-the-go reference these electronic ones are great, but for calmly organizing my life, I prefer putting pencil (I never write in my calendars in pen) to paper. I have even kept some past ones as makeshift journals of years past. Recently I purged many of them about held on to one or two because of the significance of those years.
So today, I’m filling in by 2010 calendar. Each month and each page hold the promise of a fabulous year.
I haven’t been taking my own advice. M. is definitely not taking my advice. Baby A. isn’t even following it. Sore throats and coughing abound in this house as the second bout of this cold is has gripped our house. Fatigue so great that apparent I slept through Baby A.’s cries. (Thank goodness for M.)
So that’s why it has been quiet here on Thank You Everything, and honestly could be quiet for awhile. I need to rest when I can and lately the debate has been nap, blog or work. None of the above has won.
As I write this in the soft glow of the white lights on the once Christmas tree, now holiday tree, I’m happy that we decided to not take it down. Instead so relinquishing it to the back porch wrapped in plastic, we have decided to keep it up. Not only does it deliver a soft glow to our lamp-less, furniture-bare living room, but it should make each holiday more festive. I’ll be decorating it for Valentine’s Day, the spring equinox, Easter, summer solstice, Fourth of July, etc.
Just doing this has made 2010 already more happy.