So far this year I haven’t blogged much. Mostly because Baby A hasn’t napped much. When I do finally make my way to the computer, I just have to do it: write, research, email, whatever. There is no time to warm-up my brain. The truth is that I miss writing here, but at the same time I’m doing something that I have never really done—chill out.
Here’s the thing about Baby A not napping: It stresses me out. My inner dialogue wigs out that if he doesn’t sleep that I won’t get my work done, I won’t be able to interview, and I won’t be able to cross things off my to-do list. But this year something is different and I’m not sure whether it is because we spent the year fighting a cold or that A. is teething, but I have been able to quiet that tightly-wound voice. Instead, if he doesn’t sleep I enjoy playing more. I’ve never really felt comfortable just being with Baby A—always had to check or compose an email, because I could miss something. What I was missing was my son developing into a little person.
So 2010 may mean a little less blogging (and sleeping) from me but if it means that I can enjoy my family while also providing for them, it’s worth it.